Faith, Hope, Love,
and the greatest among all these is LOVE.........


Faith, at any point in time did you ever have or had that on me?

Hope, at every point in time I'm always hoping that you have faith in me....

Love, I always love you! until now i have Faith in our love, and I hope that everything will be OK  as it was before...


Faith, confidence, trust to another person, I been longing to feel that coming from you, for more than a years you always doubted me, and it really hurts so bad.. wishing that even for one day you have shown me that, to boost my confidence even for a bit. I'm such a failure expecting for something that i could not have. something that as person will makes me feel complete. Yeah you are saying those words, but you also said that your not trusting anyone. in that anyone i believe i belong...

Hope "to cherish a desire with anticipation"; "to desire with expectation of obtainment"; or "to expect with confidence... this is what i have from the start, hoping for something that i don't have even a small assurance that it will happen, i take the risk, risking it all in a glance, at some point in time people will also realized that its hopeless sometimes that everything turns into despair, loosing the hope. for someone like you that i do love most, i will always hold into the hope that i have. i'm also hoping that i will not get tired of hoping. it's my love for you that makes me hope for more...

Love, "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of other." being love by you is the only desire that i always wanted. despite the fact that you are saying that you do, i'm still longing for it. i don't know for some reasons there are times that i am not feeling it coming from you, i may be looking for another way of how you should show it or is that how you show it.. i am longing for the care coming from you, even for just a small thing, which i never had, for more than a year you have the chance but you never use it. i accept that fact is just that i am human, i have also a need that needs to be satisfied. as a human all i want  is your care..

maybe all of these are just a small thing for you.. but for me, these small things are the one that i need. i know you can provide big things, but these 3 is what i need..

sad to say but i don't know if you have given me even one of those....

hind ko alam???

Hanngang kelan?

Hanggang kelan ako mag titiis?
Ako ba o siya? O kaming dalawa ang nagtitiis?

I come to the point na hindi ko na lam kung anu ang paniniwalaan ko o kung dapat pa ba ako magtiwala?

Naniniwala ba ako kase kailangan ko mag tiwala o kase dapat ko siyang paniwalaan kase mahal ko xa?

Mahal ko siya, oo, totoo at yun ang nararamdaman ko. Maniniwala ako kase mahal ko siya.

Mali man maituturing, ang akin lang nagpapakatotoo ako sa nararamdaman ko. At ang katotohanang iyon ang masakit at nakakasakit. Masakit, OO nasasaktan ako kase nag mamahal ako.

2 more days, One year na kami, anu kayang mga pagbabago ang darating o haharapin?

handa ba ako?

Expect the unexpected......

Come What May. . . . . . . .  . . . . . . . . . . . .

pain in fear

12/04/2012

I wish I'm numb! 

So i could not feel this pain I'm feeling now.

  Masakit isipin na ung taong mahal ko na nagsasabing mahal ako hnd makuhang pagkatiwalaan ako.

 I'm opening everything, for him to accept me and d reality of the world we live in. 

 Ang mundo ay parang isang party. Maraming klase ng tao ang naririto, marami kang makakaharap at makakasalamuha. Tatayo k na lang b sa isang tabi at mag mumukmok? O makikisabay ka sa agos ng kasiyahan? Mauupo ka na lng ba at kakausapin ang sarili o makikipag usap sa iba? Ikukulong mo na lang b ang sarili s katahimikan?

 

Kahit cnu man ang makasalamuha, makaharap at makilala, kung cgurado ka sa sarili mo, magtiwala ka. Pag nagawa mong pagkatiwalaan at maniwala sa iyong sarili, magagawa mo rin ang maniwala sa iba lalo na sa taong mahal mo. Nakakasakit ka na ng hndi mo alam. 

 

Nasasaktan ako dahil hnd mo ako kayang pagkatiwalaan. Mas nangingibabaw sayo ang takot at pagdududa kesa pagmamahal. Natatakot din ako na dahil sa takot at pagdududa mo, mabura at mawala ang pagmamahal mo sakin.

 

I'm doing my best to prove to you that my love is true. 

But because of your fear your not seeing it.

 You already judge me because of your fear. 

 

And its hurt like hell.

Somewhere in the middle. . . . .

Feel's like I'm walking alone, alone in a middle of nowhere, alone in a mid of solitude, alone....

thinking of something that might bother me or something that make me feel well in crazy place I've been to. In this four corner stone what i only feel is the cold, i feel so cold from with in, like ice. what i know is this is how i feel for some reason i don't know..  for some reason i don't know why i am feeling this way, something is not right that is happening right now.. As much as i don't want to think about it but i can't help my self.

the truth is, in the middle of this craziness i have, some makes me feel like a nebish or a poor soul. Alone, no one want to be with, specially that some one. for what reason I don't know, i can't think of anything that i've done or what's wrong with me, or should i say what's wrong with them...

i'm just being me. this is how i express my self. you may see anger, but i'm not
you may see frustration, sometimes i am.
you may see me happy, sometimes  i am but sometimes i'm not
you may see me strong but inside i'm so weak

i just show who i am.. somewhere in the middle you may be right, sometimes you may not.. just like being half empty half full, no one would know weather is full or empty, but one thing for sure, i may be bad if your bad and i may be good if your nice enough.

somewhere in the middle life may cross the road's of life where in you will encounter lots of hindrances, some may lead you to a journey you want, some may lead you to other way around, what ever journey you take just remember everything start with one step.

step it up and don't hold on for you might not know that somewhere in the middle you bump into the right place of who you might wanna be...

My Bucket List

1. Tour the whole Philippines, Asia and and if given a chance the whole world!
2. have some legacy

false hope

It makes me feel sad!!!

From now on I wont expect anything from what you are saying.. As I look back, so far I can't think or even remember anything that you said came into action. All are just plane words that you uttered. it doesn't any sense at all. Just like incomplete sentence, you are so hard to comprehend. Seems like I'm speaking, talking and not communicating at all.

 

 

All of your promises has been broken and gone with the wind. I don't know where are they now.

Just simply say "you don't want to make it". I don't want to hear any promises for I know I cant and there's nothing to hold on to those words that simply blurted out of your mouth. What I want is the meaning of those PROMISES and the COMFORT FEELING of IMPORTANCE and RESPECT. Don't give me those hopes which in the first place is nothing.

I may sound demanding but I'm definitely not. What I'm only asking is the thing that you said. Correction, I never asked for those, "you said it" but  

YOU NEVER MAKE THEM INTO REALITY.

and that's where all the pain originated.......

Living Young, Wild, and Free

Being young and young at heart is something that makes me feel beautiful(ano daw?????). well for some reason that's how i feel and I love it. Yung tipong alam mo na sa bawat paglipas ng taon eh nadadagdagan ka rin ng bilang sa edad, I don't care! basta ako nakapako na sa 25 ang edad ko(charley haha). still you can say "I'm Young". Nung bata pa ako, I'm so excited to grow old but now, how I wish I could turn back time. to the time when I was child. Its just a wish I know most people want... Either to change something in the past or to do something else, everyone has their own prerogative in life. given a chance to go back i will make those days unforgettable, but i don't know if i can do it, its impossible. what i can do now is to accept the fact that nobody is getting any younger and its the other way around. Reality check, I'm 25 no more but I can still say I'm young.

 

Being young is not about the age, its about how you feel for your self no matter what your age is. The way you should treat your self as well as respecting others and your self. being responsible for any actions you do. Knowledgeable of what you need in your life and achieving those without stepping to others.

Go wild in a sense that you are not forgetting who you are and be sure you know when to stop. do what makes you happy, chase your happiness, we all deserves to be happy. Do what you need to do! Get out of your comfort zone, be wild, don't be afraid to take risk, just keep moving forward in achieving your goal! Free your self from anything that's keeping you stagnant. life is full of surprises, you wouldn't know what lies ahead of you unless you move your ass out of your cocoon. Being wild is doing anything by the absence of fear, having courage to face every struggle in life no matter how hard it is. 

 

Becoming free is taking full actions towards yourself! not to anyone else but to your self alone!

 

Its your attitude on how you deal to your daily life.

 

at the end of the day, everything will still depends 

 

 

on you!!